jerseyblonde

mood: happy

Yesterday my parents surprised me with tickets to go see the Devils play the Bruins in Boston for my birthday. OMG! I was so surprised. I never expected that. So my dad and I went. He was able to get tickets from work that allowed us into the Sports Deck(like a mini VIP room). We had straight view of the rink so that we wouldn't have to move our heads to see the action. We were surrounded by Bruins fans(but there were other Jersey fans out in the regular seating) We ended up losing but only by a point. We would've had the game if they didn't put our backup goalie in net. Oh well it was still a good game. It was so funny I was the only Devils fan to get caught on camera when they panned the crowd. When I started showing my team spirit they quickly panned the camera off. On the last goal scored by Jersey I stood up and cheered and one of the waitresses joked around and said sit down. I heard it but didn't know who said it. I was just too in the moment making noise for my team. Everytime we scored I would jump out of my seat and cheer. I got so many dirty looks from people it was funny. It definalty made my New Year a little bit better since it's been a bad start(mostly because of my car)
















Me

Me and Dad

Celebrating after we drew first blood

View of the rink from our seats

End of the game fight

And the final score(we should've won)

           MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

mood: stressed

It's over, it's over, it's over...

It seems you can't hear me
When I open my mouth you never listen
You say stay, but what does that mean
Do you think I honestly want to be reminded forever?

Don't waste your time trying to fix
What I want to erase
What I need to forget
Don't waste your time on me my friend
Friend, what does that even mean

I don't want your hand
You'll only pull me down
So save your breath
Don't waste your song on me, on me
Don't waste your time

It's not easy not answering
Every time I want to talk to you
But I can't
If you only knew the hell I put myself through
Replaying memories in my head of you and I
Every night

Don't waste your time trying to fix
What I want to erase
What I need to forget
Don't waste your time on me my friend
Friend, what does that even mean

I don't want your hand
You'll only pull me down
So save your breath
Don't waste your song on me, on me
Don't waste your time

You're calling
You're talking
You're trying
Trying to get in
But it's over, it's over
It's over, friend

Don't waste your time trying to fix it
So save your breath
Don't waste your song on me, on me
Don't waste your time

You held me
You felt me
You left me
But it's over, it's over, it's over

You touched me
You had me
But it's over, it's over
It's over, my friend
Don't waste my time

I don't know if anyone actually reads these posts or not. I've been posting songs because they pretty much how I'm feeling and what I am dealing with at the moment. I'm not much for writting down my life but sometimes I probally will. I think the songs really speak what I am going through and how I am feeling. There's just been so much going on that I can't soak it all in at once. So I have been an emotional wreck these past few days. So if anyone reads these thats the reason behind posting songs.

mood: frustrated

music: Daughtry

Yeah today I'm in one of my moods again being that I'm so sick of seeing and hearing about people being together with someone. I'm almost 20 and have never had a boyfriend and have only been on one date(well not really a date more like meeting someone. which never went any farther than that) It's just....I don't know. I see people everyday married or dating at work and with friends and wonder why don't I have anyone yet. My parents keep telling me that I'm being saved for someone special but it's like hurry up already. It's not that I want a boyfriend for the wrong reasons it's just that I want to have someone I can talk to, hang out with and feel like I'm loved by someone else other than my family. I feel like there's no guys in this stupid state for me. My mom keeps joking saying that I'm going to meet someone out of state. All the guys I know here are either taken or not worth it. It's just so frustrating! It makes me feel like I'm not pretty etc. I don't know. Guys can be such jerks anyway. I've been hurt by many and I wasn't even dating them. I guess I'm a hopeless romantic trying to find Mr. Right.